“You have to have the bad days to appreciate the good ones.” ~Unknown
Tomorrow is going to be one of the bad days. But I hope to look back on it in a few yrs and view it as a very good day.
I won't lie... I'm scared. I'm scared something will go wrong. I'm scared I'll regret it. I'm scared I won't pull through like I hope.
But more than anything, I'm scared of what will happen to me if I don't do this. And that is what is keeping me going.
I check in tomorrow at 12:30 and my surgery is at 2:30.
I'm stressing myself sick! Literally...my throat hurts, slight fever, etc. And because I can't take any meds, I'm relying on natural cures. And if you know me, I'm anything BUT natural! So we'll see.... seems to be working so far.
Today I'm on a liquid diet to prepare my stomach for the crap it's about to go through. Drinking my protein isn't exactly what I enjoy doing but I better get used to it. I had a carnation instant breakfast this morning which was fine but then I tried a protein drink for lunch... didn't love it. I was stupid though and added some plain greek yogurt for added protein and that just made it nasty!! But that's okay.. I'll get used to it. And it'll be good. And I'll get myself in the shape I want to be in.
So as of midnight tonight, no food or drink. And then it's game on!!!